medium change

I'm not sure where yet.
I have 3 options.
Maybe more if I dig around a little bit.

vermont

It sucks growing apart from friends.
I knew it would happen, and I knew it would happen with certain people more than others, but it still sucks.
With most cases, it's just lack of communication since we're at different schools and cities. In one particular case, it's a combo of lack of communication and personality change. I knew I would change and I had a strong feeling they would change, but they changed much more than I had anticipated.
I'm done trying to keep my old friendships from falling apart. If they're going to fall apart, so be it. It was supposed to happen that way I guess.
But I am definitely thankful for the handful of friends that I can still say that I am close with.

aeo

They've been letting me down lately.
Aerie on the other hand, has not.

conversations

with dead people.
That's what it is.
Youtube that ish.

sets

I miss both sets of friends quite terribly. I think it's a little funny and sad that I'm keeping in better touch with my friends from out of state than I am with my friends that are in the next city over. But I'm trying, really. Maybe my Pepperdine peeps are just more responsive. Idk. I would like to spend time with my Cal friends before I go back. At least for one day. There's 8 days left, so get on it.

usc

I applied to USC back when I was doing all of my college applications to make my father happy. He really wanted me to go there, but I wanted nothing to do with the Trojan family.
I felt uncomfortable when I went for my interviews, the school just didn't feel right when I visited, and there were way too many people. I needed something different.
I couldn't be more happier at Pepperdine. It's small enough where I am a name, not a number, but big enough where I see new people everyday. When I went to visit last year, I felt extremely comfortable and I knew that's where I wanted to be. My dream came true and that's where I am now. Well... I'm in Whittier now, but that's where I go to school.
It's been months since my rejection letter from USC and my moving to Malibu, but my dad stills talks about USC like I should be going there. He got in, ended up going to Whittier, but says he should've gone to SC. That's his fault, not mine. I can't fix it. I can't live the life he wanted. Don't get me wrong, USC is a great school, but it's just not for me. I will graduate with an education, morals, and a good sized network while Trojans will graduate with an education, a hangover, and a huge network. Jk... but not really.

cafe

I'm not a big fan of my uncle's new girlfriend. My grandma was saying that they're just friends that are dating, but they sure looked cozy last night. Looks more like bene-friends to me. Whatever though. Maybe I need to warm up to her. But I mean, she got my uncle into smoking again which isn't cool and she wasn't very sociable. He needs to move on.

finally

After over a month of waiting, I was finally able to register for classes this afternoon. I had to change my wish list of classes several times, about 8, due to certain classes closing, but I ended up with all the classes I wanted to take... just not at the times that I'd like to take them. It isn't horrible time wise though. 1 class Monday, Wednesday, Friday, 2 classes Thursday, and 3 classes 2-9 on Tuesday. That's going to be rough I think. But I can handle it.
I absolutely cannot wait to go back. I don't know how I'm going to manage over the summer being away for 4 months.

pch

How I missed it so. Traffic was wonderful, the weather was gorgeous as was the ocean view. The construction at school made progress from the last time I was there, so that's exciting. I just cannot wait to go back to Malibu for more than an hour. 2 more weeks.

neg

No 'bu today. It rained.
I'm going tomorrow.

busy

That's what I will be tomorrow.
Mall, Malibu, and mail.
Hopefully I wake up at a decent hour.

hmmm...

I will go to Knott's or Disneyland sometime before Christmas.

12/19-16

• i cavedI watched Twilight.

  I was bored, and wanted to watch a movie, and that was one of the movies on the homepage, so I watched it.
  The quality wasn't all that bad either.
  Not as bad as From Justin to Kelly, but I wouldn't want to see it again.
  
  
  for realz
  I need to stop eating crap.
  
  
  ugh...
  i am soooo full, it hurts.
  it was worth it though.
  good laughs and great company.
  what else could i ask for?
  
  
  brrr...
  It's cold in this house.

12/12-15

• the remedy

  My face will be blemish free by the time I go back to school.
  
  
  sleep
  Idk if I'm catching up from finals week or if it's the medicine I'm taking for my teeth, but I am just uber tired lately. I fell asleep for a few hours already, woke up, started writing this, and now I can't wait to go back to sleep.
  And it's weird that tomorrow's Monday and I won't be at school. I won't be at school for a few Mondays...
• change of heart
  Every time I've come home, maybe about 4 or 5 times, since I've started school, my dog's really happy to see me, but my cat completely ignores me. However, ever since I came home Thursday night, he's been really nice to me and all cuddly. It's weird. I like it, but it's weird that he likes me this time. Maybe he knows I'll be staying more than 3 days this time.
• im tired
  so im doing this now.
  I got my wisdom teeth taken out today. As soon as they put the IV in, I was out. I barely remember anything until I was getting ready to leave. I'm pretty drugged up, so I've been loopy since then, but I'm starting to feel a little pain. Nothing terrible. I've had gauze in my mouth all day and I can't feel my lips or chin, but whatev.
  We'll see how tomorrow goes...

12/8-12/11

• bye bye pdine

  It was weird leaving school today. All the other times I've left, I come back before the weekend's over, but I'm gone for a little less than a month this go round. It was weird seeing people leave, knowing that I won't see them until January, and some I won't ever see again. It was especially weird seeing my suitemates leave. I spend so much time with them every day/week/month, that not seeing them that often is going to be weird... and boring. It's probably going to be real boring without Katy around to act stupid with. I could always act stupid by myself, but that's stupid.
  
  
  finals night 4
  Last finals night.
  My speech final went really well, and since I got out early and Katy and I couldn't find Rice Krispies on campus anywhere, I went to Ralphs to get some. I was back in Hayes before Katy was finished were her speech final.
  We went to dinner and then I was back to hittin the books. I got to 480 last night, but not until 4. Not too bad.
  I finished my book around 11:15 then putz around online until midnight when Katy and I went outside to scream. There was an undie run tonight, where everyone runs around in their underwear, but there was no way Katy and I were going to run in our underwear when it's this cold at night. There were only a few people that ran by and they were all guys. It was kinda awk seeing some of them in their underwear. Not flattering at all. Happy trails are no good.
  Anyway, when Katy and I got back, we made Rice Krispie Treats! It was really fun and easy and delicious! We decided that we need to make them more often.
  So now I have a 5 page paper to write. I don't think I'm sleeping tonight, but that's okay. I've done it plenty of time before... back in jr. year.
  
  
  finals night 3
  Long, long night.
  Had juries for bassoon. They went okay. Nothing special. I'm no music major, or minor, so I wasn't like amazing and I didn't plan on being amazing. I just wanted to get it done and over with so I could go eat. Which I did as soon as I was done.
  Then I read... and read... and read.
  Then midnight rolled around so Katy, Laura, and I went outside and screamed. It's rather quite fun. Katy and I plan on making Rice Krispie Treats tomorrow, so we went to Ralphs again for supplies. We ended up only getting marshmallows because we figured we could steal butter from the caf and find individual boxes of Rice Krispies from the caf, the ccb, and the hawc. If not, we'll just go to Ralphs tomorrow. Oh, and on the way to my car, some guys in socks (in strategically placed spots) and masks ran by and were screaming. It was pretty funny. One of them patted my shoulder, which makes me believe they knew me, but idk.
  After we got back we were being silly as usual, and now I've been reading for forever. I'm not stopping til I get to 480, which is about 100 pages away. Hopefully I won't be up too late.
  
  
  finals night 2
  Read.
  Acted silly with Katy.
  Took Amber and the suities out to dinner for her birthday.
  Acted silly with Katy.
  Read.
  Midnight scream.
  Acted silly with Katy, Erin, and Laura.
  Acted Silly with Katy.
  Read.
  Probably going to read til 3ish.

12/4-12/7

• finals night 1

  I didn't start hard core studying until around 9. I'm bad, I know. But before that I was at the bball game, and then I was doing other stuff, and then I went to In N Out with Laura, Erin, Jordan, and Tim.
  And then midnight was the Midnight Scream, where everyone screams for a minute. That was really fun. Katy and I were hungry, so we went to Ralphs to get food and stuff. And now I'm done eating and blogging, so I'm going to get ready for bed, drink a doubleshot, go downstairs by the fireplace and study until I can't study anymore. So probably until my final tomorrow at 7:30 AM.
  
  
  tri x/ sig ep
  Laura, Erin, and I decided on a whim to go to Sig Ep's party. It wasn't really a Sig Ep party, but it was a lot of Sig Ep boys throwing a going away party for one of their bros. They all decided to make up a new frat and call it XXX (ky ky ky/ tri x). It was hilarious. I think Erin and I were the only sober ones, so we were able to appreciate everyone's stupidity. Good times, good times.
  
  
  spring awakening
  I'm not all that into musicals, but this one was I enjoyed.
  The music was good, the acting was good, and the story line was good. Riskay, but good. Amber was freaking out most of the time, but I tried to ignore her the best I could.
  
  
  free
  To start studying for finals.
  Boo.

11/30-12/3

• put that in your rhetorical pipe and smoke it

  Most dramatic exit EVER.
  It was too funny.
  I wonder what the class thought.
  I need to ask somebody tomorrow, cuz I was outies.
  
  
  almost
  I'm almost done with my paper. I need one more page, but I'm too tired to finish tonight. I'll do it when I wake up.
  
  
  hold tha phone
  or at least hide it.
  And it isn't a phone.
  It's a rubix cube.
  Well, a cheap one.
  I've been playing with it all day and I have stuff to do.
  When Katy gets back, I'm going to have her hide it until idk when. Thursday I think. No, Friday.
• 
  
  ugh...
  I don't feel well.
  Maybe if I'm sick now, I won't be sick for Christmas like I usually am.
  But I don't want to be sick now.
  I have lots to do this week and finals next week.
  No good.

11/26-11/29

• i like waterfalls

  Current mood:cold

  i like butterflies.
  i like rainbows.
  I like chasing cars.
  
  Oh that Kristen.
  
  Seeing 2 out of 6 friends I would've like to have seen over break is kind of sad. Granted, I saw 3 of the other 4 within the past 3 weeks, so I guess it's okay. But I doubt I'll be seeing much of that one the next time I'm home... or anytime I'm home.
  Whatev.
  
  
  
  do your part
  today went well =]
  thank you.
  i'm trying.
  
  
  pop top cover
  everything will go well between me and father tomorrow.
  everything will go well with my car tomorrow.
  my mother will get off work at a reasonable time tomorrow.
  my mother will be financially stable.
  my student account will be taken care of by december 11.
  i will be able to register for second semester by december 12.
  
  
  anxiety attack?
  I didn't know they could last for hours. Last night was not fun at all. Probably the worst night's sleep ever. But not really, since I couldn't sleep.
  Hopefully tonight goes better.