Halloween

I didn't really get to sleep in because I had to go feed Rufus, but I ended up falling asleep for a little bit at Caroline's and cuddled with the kitty. He's pretty cute.

I don't really remember what I did when I got home. I think I tried doing some homework, but didn't really get much of a dent in before I had to go to lacrosse. Lacrosse was fun, but I got a little beat up. After practice I hit up Ralphs, CVS, and Starbucks before going home. I really wanted to go out, but Erin and Katy didn't want to, plus I was tired and had a lot of homework to do, so it didn't really work out. We watched Hocus Pocus instead. I had a nice evening, don't get me wrong, but it wasn't the one I wanted.

October 30

I had to wake up early so I could get my car to the dealer when it opened. I think I ended up getting there close to 8. When I got back to my dad's, I crashed until after 11 and stayed in my room texting for about an hour until my sister came and got me to tell me we were going to lunch. Lunch was great. We stopped by Borders on the way home, picked my car up, and then my dad and I went to go get it smog checked. It passed. I dropped him off and went over to my grandparents'. I missed them so much. They're silly. My mom showed up a while later, so I'm glad I decided to wait around for her. I left around 6:45 and got back around 8.

Daniel called, so I talked to him for a while and then I went over to Caroline's to check up on Rufus. Jordan was supposed to be staying there this weekend, but she bailed tonight, so Caroline asked if I could go give Rufus some lovin'. Of course I could.

I was really tired when I got home, so any thoughts of being productive flew out the window and I went straight to bed.

Erin went to a party and Katy was at Oxy, so I was all by my lonesome. Again.

October 29

I woke up early to go to lacrosse conditioning, but only Chandice was there. No coach. We opted for the gym, so I did 9 miles on the bike, abs, and then I went up to the track to do a timed mile. My time was 16 seconds worse, but I'm blaming that on not running with anyone and having already biked 9 miles.

I went to convo after that and then hung out with Erin and some of her BA friends until around noon. I was thinking I'd get a nap in or something, but ended up just doing laundry for the afternoon. And I wanted to go get my car washed, but that didn't happen either.

When it was time to get ready for the Kate Nash concert, I realized that the top I had bought to wear to the concert was too big, so that put me in a bad mood for a while. It wasn't too awkward with Katy and Chris, but it was a little. I got really tired really fast, so that sucked. But I snapped out of it on our way home and made a pit stop at In-N-Out and then Erin and I were being silly the rest of the way home. I think Katy was upset, but she kept saying she was fine, so I guess she was.

October 28

I probably shouldn't still be awake, but that's okay. Tonight was good. Today was good. This week has been good for the most part.

Scout came to cuddle right as I was supposed to be getting out of bed, as usual, and because she felt extra soft, I seriously considered not getting up. But I did. I got ready for work and opened with Emory and Candice, and then Courtney came in at 5. I like Courtney. I'm sad that she's leaving next semester. She's a good person. Pari and Jesse came in later, but I didn't really talk to them too much. I don't know why.

I got off at 9:30 and then came home and got ready for school. I had intended on going to school early to print stuff, but the print center wasn't cooperating, so I stayed home for a few extra minutes and then stopped by work to get some caffeine. Whenever I go in in real people clothes, everyone gets a big kick out of it. It makes me happy. I like the people I work with.

Class was just okay. We watched a movie, but we didn't really go over new material. It was okay I guess.

We learned stuff in graphics though, so that was nice. Complicated, but nice.

After class I busted a mission to Agoura to get some black matte paper and then over to Kinkos to get my midterm printed. Hassle. Then I realized I needed a folder, so I went home and was just a few minutes late to class. I was stressin' to the max, but I survived.

I was silly in class. We went over radio, so I was doing sound effects. Silly. And Jordan and I were chatting via Facebook, so that was silly too.

Everyone was home when I got home, so that made me happy. Erin was upstairs for the first part, but Katy kept me company downstairs. After a while we started carving pumpkins and being silly. I really like it when we're all happy and silly. I really hope we stay that way.

October 27

Katy's birthday!

I opened.

I wasn't productive at home.

I got a little mad at myself.

I almost fell asleep in English.

I took Isabela to Duke's for Katy's birthday.

Dinner went well.

I took Isabela and Katy to ICC.

I took Katy to dance.

I did my midterm in the library.

I picked Katy up.

We went home.

We took pictures.

We were silly.

We went to bed.

October 26

I opened with Yeltsin, which was kind of weird. We didn't really talk and we clocked in early. But whatev. It wasn't super busy or stressful and I was off at 9, so that was nice. I came home bearing gift, drinks for Katy and Erin, and thought about napping, but ended up showering and cleaning the bathrooms instead. And I had intentions of going to American Apparel and getting Katy a hoodie, but changed my mind at the last second and went to Santa Monica to go shopping for myself instead. It was a huge bust, so I headed in the complete opposite direction and went to the Oaks. That wasn't a waste, but it kind of was. I don't know. I stopped by CVS and Starbucks before class and got to class thinking it was going to be a good productive day, but we had a pointless speaker that used up the whole class time. I thought about going to the library right after class, but headed over to Sbux instead. Devyn was there, so we talked a little bit and decided we'd both end up in Payson after Starbucks closed. I wasn't too productive, but whatever.

When I got home, I kind of sat around until midnight and then the fun started. Birthday! We drank a bottle of champagne and got silly and it was fantastic.

October 25

I slept on the couch for about 2 hours and then it was off to work.

It got kind of busy, but it wasn't anything I couldn't handle.

And now I found out Courtney's leaving after this semester. Real good.

I came home, got ready for school, read as much as I could, and then went to HIST.

I figured class would be a good indicator of how the relationship between me and Katy was doing, and I think it's doing okay. We were silly and it was genuine from my end, and I think it was genuine from hers too.

Graphics was stupid. I stayed up late doing homework and it turns out class was cancelled. Well, we were supposed to watch a movie with a sub, but the movie disappeared, so then class was cancelled.

I ended up between the HAWC and the Sandbar trying to finish my reading for ENG, but ended up 10 pages short. Not that it mattered anyway. I was hard core falling asleep. It was really bad. During our break I ran up some stairs and did some push ups to try and wake me up a bit, but it only lasted so long.

I was by myself until I left for my LSA e-Board meeting at 8, which was kind of dumb. When I got home, everyone was home, including Josh.

I spent some time talking to Devyn via fb, Katy tried doing homework, Josh left, and then Katy left for dance.

Erin and I spent a good hour or so talking about stuff. Apparently Katy didn't give her the same version of Friday that I gave. Katy left out some crucial details like the fact that they were having sex. That's the MAIN detail. I think I changed the dynamic of the house by telling Erin that, but she needed to know. And she was siding with Katy, but now she definitely sees where I'm coming from and thinks I reacted like I should've.

I meant to shower and be in bed by 10, but that didn't happen. It's 11:34 already. Whoops.

October 24

Katy and I talked about EVERYTHING until around 3. I feel exponentially better our friendship, but there were some things discussed that I feel worse about. Like the whole Chris issue. I don't think I can fix that one. I don't think Katy's going to let me.

We both woke up at 9, but didn't really wake up until 10. Katy went to dance and I tried getting homework done, but I slept instead. And I had planned on going to Lacrosse, but I slept and swiffered instead.

Work was actually really good, despite closing with Amariah. Normally I don't like working with her, but I felt she wasn't around a whole lot tonight, so it was okay. And I was flirting with this guy Devyn yesterday, and he was around again today, so we talked a little bit again, and now we're friends on facebook and spent a good chunk of the evening chatting. He asked me out and asked for my #. Kinda cool.

I did graphics homework and meant to read, but ended up creeping on fb instead. Whoops.

october 23

So I slept in my car until 8, went back home to get ready for work, and then clocked in at 9. Katy had to open the dance studio at 9 and stopped in on her way home, but I didn't really acknowledge her. I said bye though. I should have treated her like normal, but I was still pretty shaken up.

Work wasn't too stressful, and I started getting silly towards the end.

After work, I met up with Caroline, Jordan, and Taylor to talk about our project. Not much was accomplished, but whatever.

I came home afterwards and saw Katy's car parked on the street by mine. I took a deep breath and walked towards home. When I opened the garage, I saw Chris's car still there. I wasn't ready to face both of them, and probably won't be for a while, so I immediately left. I headed over to Caroline's and hung out with her and Rufus until 7. I came home, awkwardly talked to Erin and made a few comments to Katy, and then showered. I intended on doing homework in the library, and I did go, but I got there at 8:47 and they closed at 9, so I went back home. Erin had gone to some birthday party, so it was just going to be me and Katy, but she was upstairs in bed and I stayed downstairs.

I was really hoping we'd talk through some things tonight, but I don't think we're going to.

October 22

So I opened with Kousha. Apparently he's a shift from Cross Creek and he is a strange little man. Grace was supposed to come in at I think 7, but she isn't working this week, so it was just me and him until Pari showed up at 8. It sucked because it was ultra busy. We never had more than 2 people working at a time until Maddie showed up when I was off. Crazy.

I came back and crashed for a bit, which was well needed, and then I went to conditioning practice, only there was no conditioning practice. I came back and got ready for my evening instead.

I met up with Isabela, Chris, and Katy for the Randumb show premiere, which I thought was going to be awkward because I feel awkward around them plus I was already in a shitty mood, but it wasn't more awkward than usual. There were technical difficulties with the screening, so we all went to the Coffee House. It was really good and Peter was fantastic.

I was planning on going to get food afterwards and just driving around until idk when, but Katy wanted to go out with everyone, so I went and got food and met up with them at Diddy Riese. I didn't get anything. I drove around until 2 and slept downstairs until around 2:30 when I heard Katy and Chris having sex. Not okay. At all. Especially after what happened last year. Katy knows I'm uncomfortable around them, and this just made it a million times worse. Real good. Katy and I were texting about it until 4. I slept in my car.

October 21

So last night after I went to bed, I couldn't fall asleep because I was thinking about how much I fail at talking to Katy. Then Katy and I were texting about it until she finally went to bed. I fell asleep pretty soon after.

I didn't quite open, but I had to be at work at 5:30. Emory and Courtney are funny, so it was a good morning. It wasn't too busy like the other day. Emory really good at letting me go on time, sometimes a few minutes early, so I met up with Katy in the parking lot to give her her drink.

When I got home I meant to do homework but I napped for a second instead. Whoops. I got ready for school, went back to sbux to pick up my apron that I forgot, and then was at school around 11:15.

I spent the time before class and a little bit into class working on my typography poster, and because I was still kind of in a mopey mood, class wasn't very fun. I didn't really care. When I got to graphics, I found out that our typography posters weren't homework and that we aren't revisiting them. I wasn't too happy about it since I was actually proud of my work and I had spent so much time on it. We spent all of class learning about the pen tool in illustrator, which was frustrating, but helpful I guess.

When I got home, I was really hoping to talk to Katy, although I was pretty sure I wouldn't have the courage to, but she wasn't home anyway. I just plopped on my bed and moped instead. She stayed downstairs when she got home and knew I wasn't okay, but didn't come up to see me. I really would've liked her to, but it's not like she would've known that since I didn't tell her. We started texting about it and it continued well into advertising, but I don't know if it actually helped anything. I wish I could talk to her. About everything. She tries so hard, but I need her to push that much harder.

When I got home I went back to moping on my bed, but nobody came to save me. Erin poked fun, which wasn't appreciated, but whatever. We all went to In N Out and it was delicious and all, but I didn't say much of anything on the way there, while we were eating, or on the way back. I was a "pouty pants."

I need some extra effort. I need to know it's safe to spill.

October 20

Before going to bed, Katy and I were being extremely silly. She said that Chris has never seen that level of dork before, so I felt special. And we talked a little bit after we were in bed, so that was nice too.

Practice this morning went well. I was expecting it to be raining, but the sun actually came out for a little bit and I was hot by the time I went to convo. Convo was really good, but it hit a little too close to home, so it made me a little uncomfy. Maybe that's why it was good. The speaker was talking about letting yourself be vulnerable for once and let your friends help you. That's what Katy was talking about with me the other day, only she was using the "floaties" analogy. I want a person that I can be completely open and honest with, and Katy can easily be that person, but I won't let her. I won't let myself let that happen. I'm just too scared and I hate it. A lot.

After convo I came home and got all dolled up for school and finally started reading 2 hours after I really should've started. I was scheduled to give blood at 2:40, so I left and got to the HAWC just in time. I was a little worried that they wouldn't let me donate since I got a piercing recently, but I was fine. Only I wasn't. The bag was filling up super slowly and then I started bleeding, so I had to stop. I was NOT happy. And that incident kind of pushed me over the edge. I got real upset and stayed upset for the rest of the night.

I was texting Katy the entire time and she knew I was upset, and she said she'd be there for me if I needed her, only she wasn't there for me when she got home. I was alone, upstairs. Finally I caved and asked her to come keep me company before she left for her Songfest meeting, and she did, only she was on her bed and watching TV. That's fine I guess, I just wanted something different. That kind of upset me too.

I allowed myself to wallow in self pity for a bit longer and then left for the library to work on homework after 7. I didn't get a whole lot done, but whatever.

Today was not my day. I was feeling so positive about it this morning too. What a shame.

October 19

So I'm kind of over today.

I had an early start, I opened with Amariah and Yeltsin, and I'm about ready to call it a night.

The past few times I've opened with Amariah, she lets me run the floor until whoever comes in next comes in. It's great that she thinks I'm responsible enough to do that, and I can handle it, but it was really busy today and I just couldn't do it. It was busy all morning. And we were running out of stuff, so that didn't help either. I was supposed to get off at 9, but ended up staying close til 10, so that sucked.

I came home, changed, and then went to school to meet up for advertising at 11. There was no parking, so we opted for Caroline's apartment. As soon as we, me, Jordan, and Emily, got there, the power went out. No power meant no internet, which made it hard to be productive. We kind of threw around some ideas, but ended up calling it quits an hour later.

I came home and surfed around for a while and then went to Lily's to pick up lunch for me and Katy. I ended up staying longer than planned, but I think that was okay. I enjoy spending time with her.

I hit up the library for a little bit to work on homework for graphics and then went to class. I spent the whole time surfing around online, but I tried to pay attention. Our group met up for a few minutes after class and we were actually productive, after Stu left.

I came home, ate, showered, and tried to read, but just wasn't feeling it.

I ended up in a weird mood. I hate when that happens.

October 18

I kind of got to sleep in, but not really. I woke up at 8.

I got some homework done and was able to get out of the house before 11. I headed over to Starbucks and ran into Erin on my way out, so I stopped and chatted with her before we both headed to school.

History was only okay and graphics was really confusing. Photoshop, I get. Illustrator, not so much.

English wasn't too bad and I actually participated a little bit. Nothing major.

When I got home, Katy had a friend over, who I was never introduced to, and Josh came over a little after that. I should've started dinner sooner, but I didn't start til 6:15. Dinner wasn't ready until 8, so Katy couldn't really stay, which bummed me out. And she knew it. Maybe not why I was bummed, but that I was bummed.

LSA was kind of boring, but whatevs.

I came home around 9:30 and got ready for bed.

October 17

I want to go to bed.

I went to work.

I went to Albertsons.

I came home and played on photoshop.

I ate.

I made champurrado.

I read.

I did some LSA stuff.

Done.

October 16

Surprisingly, I was able to sleep in until past 11.

I lounged around for a while, and thought about doing homework, but I opted for finally becoming human and going shopping. I waited a few extra minutes for Katy to come home so I could give her a goodbye hug, and then I was off.

Target was expensive, but I got everything I needed.

The mall was a little bit of a bust, but I got what I needed there too. Boots.

I dropped about 300 dollars in 1 day. Gross.

Erin was gone when I came home, and I found out later that she had gone to the Camarillo Outlets. I told her we should go, but she said she needed to do homework. Thanks Erin.

I spent the rest of the evening catching up on Glee and Chuck and Erin went over to Josh's.

October 15

I don't feel like posting.

I woke up late for work, but made it on time.

Work was fun and I fell asleep on my 10.

I got to go home early.

I slept for 2 hours.

I wrote my paper for english, which I'm not proud of.

I had printing drama.

I turned my paper in right on time.

I lounged around home for a bit.

I went to pick up my paycheck.

I went to work at school.

Blue and Orange Madness was super fun.

I got home kinda late.

Katy and I were silly.

It was good.

October 13-14

10/13 5:06 AM

I almost forgot to blog.

I woke up for lacrosse practice at 7:30 and went to convo with some of the girls afterwards. I don’t know why, but I didn’t really feel like sitting with Katy, so I didn’t bring my phone in.

I met up with Tim at 11 and hiked solstice. It took longer than expected and was hotter than expected, but it was fun.

I came home, showered, and then went to English, which was super hard to sit through.

I came home again to grab all my homework, went to school for a riptide meeting, and then I went to ICC.

I spent the rest of my evening working on homework in Payson and the hawc.

I’m super stressed.

10/14

work kind of sucked, but I was able to leave super early. 9.

I came home, finished my ad, and then went to school a little early to study some more for my history midterm. I don't feel super comfy about it, but I think I did well enough. I finished with enough time to have some lunch with Erin and Josh and then went to graphics where we had a guest speaker. Well, Ginger had a guest speaker and we were her guests.

After class I went down to Payson to finish my write-up for my project and then had drama with printing, so I was late to class. We presented our ads, watched a short movie about colours, and then we were done. I came home and tried to do homework, but failed. I was too tired. And Katy and I were kind of snappy all day, so it was a tad bit tense when she got home. I ended up leaving for Payson, but after some texting and some nausea, I came back home and Katy and I talked things out.

I hope things get better.

October 12

I went to bed later than I had intended to in hopes of seeing Katy when she got home so we could talk. I like talking to her, but I'm afraid to. And I don't even know what we would've talked about. I ended up falling asleep as soon as my head hit the pillow.

I opened with Hannah, which was fun, and I got home around 11. I meant to take a one hour nap and then go help out LSA at 2, but ended up sleeping until 3, with intermittent breaks in between. Whoops. I spent the rest of my afternoon surfing around online looking for costume ideas. I've decided that I'm going to be Kat Von D. I think I could pull that one off and I think I can pull it off well. I just need to order some sleeves and go buy some chunky boots and I'll be good to go.

Class was just okay. We had a guest speaker, I remembered him from freshman year, and he was kind of informative, but not really. And then we kind of went over copywriting, but we didn't really have time for that. And we didn't have group time after, only we did. Taylore split right as class got out, as always, Jordan left because she had to, and Caroline, Emily, and I stayed behind to talk to Ginger. We didn't do as poorly on our draft as I thought we did. We ended up getting an A and she said that we were the group that was the most ahead. She gave us some pointers and I ended up leaving with a good sense of where we stand compared to everyone else. We could totally win the pitch competition.

I was expecting to come home, debrief Katy about my day and then go off on a burger run, but nobody was home. Erin came home from school a little after I did, and then Katy didn't come home until later. She had Blue and Orange Madness rehearsal. There was still plenty of time to get burgers, but I think she forgot. She went and called Chris instead. I finished reading for English, went on a drive to calm down a bit, and then came back home around midnight.

October 11

I should've been in bed an hour ago.

Katy and I were talking when we went to bed, only I don't really remember what I was talking to her about. I was hardcore falling asleep. I think I said sorry a lot and I think I was talking about not talking to her but wanting to, only I'm not sure. I just don't know. Katy said she remembers what we talked about, but she didn't fill me in. I didn't ask her to and I think it's too late to ask her now. That's okay. I guess it wasn't super important.

I woke up early to cover the first 3 hours of Grace's shift, which was deep cleaning. I think that's why she wanted me to cover for her. Whatevs.

I came home around 8:30, did homework, got ready for school, and headed out around 11. HIST was kind of boring, I was lost in ART, and ENG was hard to get through. I crashed for a little bit on the couch, Katy made dinner, and then we all went to Mal-Yo around 9.

I took Katy to dance, Erin and Kate went to the movies, and I came home and did random stuff when I should've been sleeping.

10/10/10

Today was much better than the past few days.

I went to bed in a crappy mood, but I woke up okay. And work was early, but good too. It was just me, Claudia, and Maddie for the longest, but then Chris showed up. Grace was supposed to work, but never came in. And it turns out I'm covering part of her opening shift tomorrow. Dumb.

Lacrosse went well too. There were only 3 girls, but it worked. I think I'm starting to get the hang of it.

LSA went well. Not super important though.

Home was good. I got some reading in and hung out with Kate, Erin, and Katy for a bit and the Flowers sisters made dinner. Delish. I read some more and then Katy and I ventured out to Diddy Riese. It was nice just hanging out with her. I feel like we don't do that any more. And we touched on the issue of me being off the past few days, but we didn't delve into it like I was hoping. We didn't/don't need to, I just think it would've been good. I'd like to have a car talk with Katy one day. Shoot, I'd like to just talk to Katy for real one day.

October 9

As I laid down on the couch, I couldn't help but feel an overwhelming sense of I don't know what. But it's happened before. I feel hot and cold at the same time, my heart starts to race, and I can't breath. And it's always because of Chris and Katy. Scout saved me though. She came up to snuggle and was purring in my ear, so that's all I could hear, keeping my imagination from killing me.

Sleeping on the couch isn't too bad, but I would prefer not to do it. I would've made plans to sleep somewhere else, but I had work at 8:15, so that wouldn't have been smart. Work was fun, except Johnny knew I was off. And I was. I'm frustrated with how things have been turning out lately and I don't understand why they haven't been turning out the way I want them to. I'm visualizing, but it comes out backwards. I worked until 2:30, went home to find Chris and Katy, and then showered since I smelled like Starbucks. I went upstairs to catch up on Glee and then started my laundry. Chris left around 6, but didn't say bye. Whatevs.

I spent the rest of the evening surfing around and doing laundry, which was incredibly boring. As soon as I was about to suggest to Katy that we go on a burger run later, she pulled out some food, so I kept quiet. Erin and Kate came home a little before 10, so we talked to them for a bit, I finished my laundry, and then went to bed.

I texted Katy earlier about me feeling another breakdown coming, and I was really hoping she'd push the issue since it was just us downstairs for hours, but she was content on watching her reality tv and crime dramas. I wanted her to push and pry, but I don't think I would've talked. But I need the pushing and prying or else I'm just going to keep quite and it's going to stew and get worse.

I'll be okay.

October 8

I went to bed in a crappy mood, but I was excited for Disneyland the next day.

I woke up fine, but that changed when Erin texted me asking when Katy and I were leaving and if I was okay with Chris AND Isabela coming. I didn't know Isabela was coming. I was fine with Chris coming, even though I knew I'd feel weird, and I guess I was fine with Isabela coming. Erin said her reason for inviting Isabela was because she didn't want things to feel weird with just me her and Chris. Apparently she didn't know Daniel was coming. That put a damper on my morning, but whatever.

Katy left to go choreograph as I was getting ready for the day, and then she asked if it was okay if Isabela could go. She already planned on her coming, so I had to say yes. Not that I wouldn't have anyway. I just thought it was funny that she asked even though she was already coming.

After I got ready I headed over to the bank, Starbucks, and then came back home. Katy and I left soon after, 12, to go pick Isabela up. Traffic sucked, so it took way longer than it should've, and then our pit stop at Halloween Club was a bust.

I just wasn't very happy about the whole situation. Ideally, Katy and I would've left kind of early, had some roommate bonding time in the car, at Halloween Club, and at Disneyland before the boys got there. We got into Disneyland at 3, I was pissed, the boys showed up, and then we only got on Indiana Jones and Space Mountain because it was crowded and the park closed early. Having Daniel there made things a million times better though. I just felt bad for Isabela being the odd one out. I didn't want anyone to feel that way. We headed over to California Adventure where it was much of the same. Long lines and unhappiness. Daniel left early, so then it was just me and the Skyline gang. It wasn't terrible awkward, but I was still unhappy about the situation.

I should've stayed home. I would've had more fun.

I think mostly I'm just frustrated. And I wish Katy would ask me about it, but I don't think she will. And I need her to push even when it seems like I don't want to. I need to talk to her, but I can't do it without some help.

October 7

Caroline and I went to sbux after we left the HAWC and then went home to nap. Sad.

I fell asleep as Katy was waking up, she left, I got ready for school, I left a little before 11 to go to sbux again, and then I met up with Katy before class.

I was super tired from the night before, but I wasn't too tired to be silly. I like being silly in history. Graphics was okay, but seeing everyone's posters made me feel incompetent. Theirs were so much better than mine. I came home for a bit before meeting up with my advertising group, but I probably should've just stayed at school.

Advertising was going really well until we got to Madison. He didn't like our print ads, two of which I did, but whatever. That sucked, and some of the comments Taylore made sucked and made everyone mad, so we stayed behind and talked to Ginger about it after class. I feel bad, but not really.

I talked to Daniel for a bit on my way home and then was confused to find the house empty. I contemplated eating, but opted for a shower instead. I definitely enjoyed it, but not eating for sure put a damper on my attitude. That is, until Scout came over and wanted to cuddle. That helped a bit.

October 6

Katy and I were being super silly when we went to bed, but I crashed super hard when I let myself.

I woke up early for lacrosse practice, but since it was pouring all night, we didn't practice. We ran instead. It wasn't too bad, but I definitely was working harder than I should've been. I'm out of shape. Convo was kind of lame, but whatev.

I came home, showered, and then went to Macy's to get big kid clothes. I came back home, got ready for school, and then ventured off. We watched Grizzly Man in English, I worked on homework until 9, and met with my ad group until 6. Yes, 6. We all went through phases of deliriousness, so we had a good time, even though it was a little miserable.

October 5

I have just been too worn out by the time I have to write these, so I apologize.

I opened with Amariah, which was kind of weird considering I didn't go to the meeting/party the night before and she questioned me about it.

I worked a full 8 hours, went to school to work on advertising, and then went to class where I was fighting really hard not to crash.

After class I met up with Lisa and we went to dinner. It was good to catch up with her.

I got home at 9:30, Katy came home soon after, we got ready for bed, and Erin got in right as I was posting this.

October 4

So I woke up early to open with Amariah.

The morning was kind of busy, but not terrible.

School went okay.

I was supposed to go on a hike with my ENG class, but it was rainy, so we watched a movie instead.

I lounged around for a bit when I got home and then started dinner instead of going to a meeting I had for work.

Dinner didn't turn out as well as I wanted it to, but it was still good.

After dinner I went to an LSA meeting.

I did homework until after 12 and then got ready for bed.

October 3

Last night sucked and I was paranoid and didn't fall asleep til 3, and I didn't sleep well. I woke up at 10 and was grumpy until I left for practice.

Practice was fun and got my energy up.

I showered and got ready for dinner when I got home, and I was afraid things were going to be weird with Katy, but they weren't. And dinner at Hunnicut's was awkward, but kind of fun. I liked it.

We got home around 9, I eventually made it to Pavillions to get stuff, and then battled with homework. Sleep eventually won me over.

October 2

Opening was something else.

Hannah had Dallas's keys, so we went back to his house to wake Hannah up, but his keys were at her house, so then we went to Hannah's house back through the canyon. We opened on time, just nothing was done.

I worked until noon then went to work on advertising stuff at school with my group. We got a lot done.

I came home, showered, Swiffered, and then started working on homework. Katy came home, and then Chris, and then we all went to dinner. I figured it would be a good way to show Katy and Chris that I didn't have a problem being around them. It was great that Erin was there too. Erin left pretty soon after we got back, and then Chris and Katy left to go to a late movie. Chris was staying over, so I didn't want to be around and I set out to see Tim, even though I told Erin and I Katy I was going to Claudia's. Then I thought about going to Daniel's, but he was home, so that wouldn't work. I drove towards Tim's anyway, but he never got back to me, so I ended up coming back home. Whatever.

October 1

I had to open, and waking up was not fun. Hannah was covering Dallas's shift, so I was a little worried about it being awkward, but it was totally fine. She's fun and ditzy and I'm not going to tell Tim that. I was supposed to work until 10:30, but I agreed to cover a shift over at Trancas, so I worked until 10 and then worked at Trancas until 1:30. That store is tiny and it was not fun to work at.

I was really tired when I got home and contemplated taking a nap, but ultimately chose not to. I didn't think it was a great idea. I was texting instead. However, I did end up falling asleep for like 10 minutes. When I woke up, I got ready for practice and then was off. We did a timed mile, which made me feel like a slow fatass, and then did abs. Not too bad. I putzed around for an hour, then Erin came home. We chatted for a bit, I showered, and then Katy came home, and Erin showered.

Katy and I ended up watching a movie and Erin went to some BA get together.