April 6

I was supposed to go to practice, and I meant to considering it was the last one, but I just couldn't. I couldn't get out of bed. I ended up waking up for real around 8 and got ready for the day. I headed out to Pavilions, made some Rice Krispie Treats, did my COM homework, and then headed to school for my COM meeting. Kind of pointless. I feel like that group project has the potential to be good, but the instructions are obscure and my group isn't really the best. We finished up at 2, so I stuck around the library and did some house hunting. 1 new prospect. I was supposed to go to therapy at 3, but it got cancelled, so I ended up staying in Payson for a while longer and looked up internships. 5 new prospects. I headed up to class, which was okay, but actually went the whole time, and then I went to Kinkos to print a portfolio.

On the drive there I got a little mopey thinking about stuff, and then when I got to Kinkos, it turned out I didn't save my file correctly, so it didn't print correctly either. That kind of pushed me over the edge. I started bawling as soon as I got to my car and got upset about a million things all over again. I swung by home to pick up the Rice Krispie Treats and then went to school for my LAX meeting at 7. That was kind of a waste too. I was supposed to go to ICC at 8, but stayed at the LAX meeting instead. Then I returned to Kinkos and got my portfolio printed.

I cried the way there and back and then went to Payson to try and get all my homework done. It didn't happen. I ended up texting Erin and crying the entire time I was there. It was dumb. I'm always that person who's in the library in a corner somewhere with something to cry about. The text convo didn't really go so well and I don't know if Erin and I are going to be okay or not. I think we need to talk about everything, I just don't think it's going to happen. I ended up leaving the library and going to Tim's.

We both did homework until 3 and now I'm going to sleep for a sec before going home to get ready for school.