September 11

So last night was rough. Chris and Katy fell asleep on the couch, so I left and slept in my car until 3, and then they were still on the couch and I snapped at Katy a little bit and felt really bad about it. I cried and I think she did too. I just was super overwhelmed with stuff that was going on and some stuff that was brought up in conversation with Tim, and I was super emotional and didn't really know how to handle it. Erin came down to talk to me for a sec, which was nice and very appreciated.

I didn't end up falling asleep until after 4, Scout woke me up at 5:30, and then I got up for real at 7 to be at work at 8. My heart was not in it today and everyone knew it. I was just pretty upset about how the evening ended the night before.

I got home a little after 1 and crashed, went to the gym after waking up, and then chillaxed around the house until Katy informed me that she still wanted to have a family meeting about yesterday. I got scared and I went for a drive for about an hour.

I came home and just hung out downstairs for a while and then the interrogation started. I got defensive and didn't give real answers and Katy got upset. I just wish I could communicate effectively. I feel terrible.